This is hard. A kind of dead end, really.
Yesterday's resolution has become today's tacit understanding.
I'm aware my field of view is narrowing, but I still feel like I'm dreaming.
I pulled out old notes and jotted a few lines.
1.
The weight crushes me.
Look at other people and be moved, and respect them, and take them in as new values for your own life.
Keep pressing yourself down and rising up, over and over.
But don't keep asking and just following;
you have to break through that and rise.
Anyone you meet will have words that are right and words that are wrong.
Take in only what's worth taking in.
You have to think and judge for yourself.
Ah — so that person did it that way. Understanding.
Only by going past that does your own value show. The student surpasses the master.
2.
Delayed gratification, facing the problem. Do it first. Don't struggle to ignore it until it's too late.
Focus on where you want to achieve, not on the difficulty and the loss.
Focus on the target. Focus on that.
Work for yourself.
It's not easy and it's hard to keep up.
In the end, after all, only what you did anyway remains.
