What If: I'd Just Built My Own Path for Those 10 Years

Back then I was completely a T-type.
Then I became a young boss and, in the process, hurt many of my colleagues and employees,
and bit by bit started asking questions about myself.
Becoming an employee at another company, I went through a belated reflection
and seem to have started, very late in the game, to turn into an F-type.

When problems came up, I asked questions about myself.
'Am I the problem? Do I just need to change? As long as the direction is the same, what does it matter whether I'm the one holding the wheel or not?' With that mindset, I jumped into a new market in a new position,
and after stepping out like that I was finally able to do my own retrospective.
But over more than 10 years of working life, I couldn't find a CEO or coworker who shared the same heart as me.
Every single one of them had a workplace, but no real vocation.
Looking lately at this market that seems immature, that seems unethical... I find myself thinking - what if I had spent those last 10 years building my own thing instead?