think normal... 025 (Trying to do what I want to do)_2009.06.23 20:43

Owning your own shop costs money.

Buying things to sell costs money.

Hiring people for what you can't do alone costs money.

Once I get just a little past this age... honestly, I can't guarantee that I'll keep the passion I have right now.

Learning something new takes too much time, and I'm aware that I'm not an all-purpose human being. 

I have no intention of earning like a beggar so I can spend like a noble.

I don't want to become an adult like the past generations who, paralyzed by pessimism about their circumstances, do nothing and just reminisce about the old days.

But

trying to do what I want to do..

there's so much I lack, and I can't even fathom the time and money it takes.

That's how it is for me.

That's why I built this shop.

I wanted a shop like this.

My dream is —

to build many shops like this,

throw it all away,

and just make clothes...

It's just that, for now,

in order to do what I want to do

I'm doing what I have to do.

Pathetically — blaming the situation? blaming the world? — I won't whine and give up.