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My cognitive-psychological state

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Communication: decide in advance and then announce.


In the morning, the news.

Books: color psychology, space psychology.

Analyze other documents and follow their approach.


What position am I in?


When someone disagrees, the attitude of first understanding why.


Wanting to rest, vague fear, anxious feelings, hopes about opportunity, the disappointment that hope amounts to little, 

Thinking is immature.

Can't hold a steady stance.

Just feeling bad about someone else's anger.


As a human being, I don't know, but in work terms, the accused.


Self-gratification

Letting myself go

Self-love

Fear of others' gaze and evaluation

The burden of having to make up for mistakes 

Would rather just reset

Run away

Clumsy skills for my age

Dying while only growing ambition


English, a temple, rest

Grad school

Cognitive psychology


Communication process, decision-making authority

Belonging

Cliques

Exclusion

Not a leader but a boss

Coercion, drinking, verbal abuse, oppression, stress

A service that isn't mine


Rather than four, five, six lukewarm months — reset quickly.

The recruiter who asked, Funny, the manager

Grad school


The manager at Mediawill

The director whose attitude changed

Salary cut

The CEO's shifted attitude


My skills as I learned where I actually stand

This place where I can learn more

Uncertain job search

Uncertain learning


Salary

Job search

Study

Sense of responsibility

Sense of exclusion


The possibility of being able to learn more.


The anxiety that if not now, I might miss the time to say it.

Anxiety

Anxiety about losing freedom

Anxiety about losing possibility


Anxiety about others' perception

Anxiety about the people left behind

In the end, anxiety about others' perception

The stress of when I held it in

Stress about the repetition of that stress

Anxiety about improving my skills


The view that skills can be different at different organizations.

Organizational culture.

Agile culture.

A culture of speaking openly.


The comment that there will be no one here I could call a senior.

Career and skills below the level for my age.


A mistake similar to the one at Incross?

At Incross they had trusted me, though...

The expectation that these are people I can learn from.


The anxiety — can I get to another place as good as this?

This English version was translated by Claude.

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Pleasant Charles — UI/UX researcher at AIT. Keeping notes on design, planning, and slow days here since 2010.

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