It's the weekend.
I only found out late that the study group was cancelled, and came back home. I was about to open a book but instead turned on the computer and picked a movie. What to watch? Looking around, this one hadn't been out long and the reviews weren't bad, so I went with it. I didn't know beforehand, but it turned out to be an omnibus.
[ Family Cinema ]
Scenes from the movie hit me. It wasn't one of those films that delivers an educational message about improving rational family relationships or makes the audience (or characters) sob their way through it — I liked that. In a way, it simply lined up key fragments of ordinary life. The director's deliberate emotional injection felt relatively restrained. The subjects of each short were on the heavier side, but for me personally it was a meaningful time.
A father's weight, the grief of losing a child, the stance with which one faces life, the ironic patterns of ordinary working people's lives that you can't really blame when you look at women's rights through the lens of reality — the film plants all of these in your heart, one after another, in a level-headed way.
For once, being alone, I found myself thinking a lot.
Among them, the short that pulled me in the most — if I remember right, it was the third one — was [ E.D. 571 ].
The words at the end of this short woke up a part of me that was worn-out and lax.
In the film, in 2029, E.D. 571 sends off his biological daughter Jung So-min, and leaves these words behind:
Words in () are what I want to say to myself, or keep asking myself.
(Your parents) have no reason to be responsible or sorry
for the fact that you (I) have become who you are today.
These words..
I don't know if they'll be any comfort, but
no human being ever decided on their own to be born into the world.
Regardless of our own will, we were all just thrown into the world.
You (I) were just thrown in a slightly unusual way,
and stood on your (my) own feet a little earlier, that's all.
The conditions are the same —
you didn't choose to be born,
and yet to the end.. it's your life, your responsibility.
That, more than anything, is why life can suddenly feel like crap for any of us..
Above all, take care of yourself (let's take care of ourselves)..
Seven years (turning thirty, or.. a lifetime) will pass faster than you think..
Good luck, then.
— From E.D. 571... (from today's me, to past-me and future-me)
Source: from the movie Family Cinema
