A Sudden Insight — How I Became a Nobody

Why do I keep going in circles?
I had no orientation
I was always busy chasing new opportunities
There was also no gap between work and life

How did I end up like this?
I think I hated being a frog in a well
I hated staying put where I was, when I was
I wanted to break out somehow

After being discharged from the military, I became aware of self-directed decisions and of new opportunities
And they became reality.
After that I experienced many attempts and changes

At some point, it was no longer my parents moving me
I was moving myself, and often
And around that time, I became
something that wasn't a frog inside the well, wasn't a frog outside — wasn't even a frog at all
My vague obsession with novelty
fell from diversity into being nothing at all

My pursuit of what lies beyond the well, yearned for without any "what" anchoring it,
became just empty novelty

That's how I became a nobody.
That's how I lost my scent, the fragrance of my own time.